You know the kind. When you get up on the wrong side of the bed, and everything just seems out of sync, not quite right, and all the little bits and pieces of the day just add up to one big mess.
Oh, nothing catastrophic happens on days like this. In fact, it might even be that it’s just like every other day. but for what ever reason, you can’t seem to handle any of it.
This was my day today. I can’t really pinpoint what my problem was. I just seemed to be out of sync with the universe. Every phone call, email, conversation I had seemed just a bit off-kilter. I was distressed by small things. My mind wouldn’t stop being concerned about all of it, but I couldn’t focus on any of it. And it didn’t help that my office is surrounded by road construction right now -so my out of whack day was set to the background music of jackhammers, backhoes and that truly excruciating “beep…beep…beep…beep” of trucks reversing.
I left early, having done just about as much damage as I could do, and went home in a grump. I was exhausted, but I felt as if I really hadn’t accomplished anything all day! That only made me more frustrated. Of course my grumpy mood didn’t go over too well with my spouse, so I retreated to the basement and watched some stupid Jennifer Aniston romantic comedy and had a proper fit.
I emerged sometime later and satiated myself with comfort food (microwaved hot dogs – I know – it’s gross, but it worked), and lied down on the bed next to hubby while he watched the hockey game. I dozed off for about 20 minutes and when I awoke, remarkably, I was clear again.
What is it that makes us go into these blue funks once in a while? I know we all do it, for varying lengths of time, with varying symptoms. True, I’ve had a lot on my mind lately, a lot of small stresses that I guess culminated in one big ball of stress that just had to come out. But now it’s over and I feel as if I can move forward with a clear head again.
What I need to figure out is what I can do to avoid this happening again? It doesn’t happen that often but when it does, man, it wears me out. I think I’m going to start by avoiding my construction-ridden office and working from the homestead for the next little while.
The good thing is I’m feeling much better and I’m back to my positive frame of mind.
This is the first time I’ve asked my blog readers for advice on emotional stuff. But I know that you are wise, and I appreciate any insight you care to share!